Saturday, April 01, 2006

Unforgetable Artists

今天是哥哥LESILE離去了三週年的紀念日子,我收到這封電郵,感慨良多......

近廿年前他一段深刻的情誼,如今死者已矣,依然令人難忘鍾保羅、DANNY和LESILE三位出色的藝人,巧合地都以自己的方式結束寶貴的生命,遺下悲慟、無奈、婉惜......

電郵的內容:
雖然 Leslie 85 年的演唱會與Danny沒有什麼關連,
他只當了一晚特別嘉賓,
但卻因哥哥區區一句無傷大雅的台詞被人拿來大造文章,
正是欲加之罪何患無辭!如果你有機會看過 Danny
做嘉賓的一晚或是最後一場演唱會, 聽到 Leslie
親口說出的一番真摯的心底話, 相信你會問一句造謠者:
何必呢!!

最後一場演唱會
在唱出陳百強的歌前,
哥哥有以下的一番話 .......

「以下的一首歌令我好感動
(然後 Leslie介紹台下來看騷的鍾保羅),
我和鍾保羅、陳百強被人稱為三劍客,
那段日子我們一起拍戲很開心,
後來因為一些機會、際遇問題大家分開了一段頗長時間,
鍾保羅加入電台, 如今已經成為一位出色DJ,
我去了拍電視劇, Danny去唱歌,
直至一晚陳百強上來和我拍著膊頭唱以下的一首歌時,
我好感動,
有種迂迴的感覺, 復合的感覺。 我好希望他會再來。」

然後哥哥問觀眾「有無來到? 」「無, 不要緊,
我在這裡盡量將他的歌演繹得好一點給大家聽」,
之後哥哥很有感情的唱出了《喝采》, 非常非常之動聽。

在別人的歌環節內, Leslie
除了唱陳百強的《喝采》和蔡楓華的一首快歌《愛不是遊戲》外,
還選唱了徐小鳳的《情比雨絲》, 唱得十分好,
真有種盪氣迥腸的感覺。

回想陳百強做嘉賓上台與 Leslie 合唱的一晚,
尤其看著二人一起奮鬥的歌迷, 感覺更是唏噓不已!

記得當晚 Leslie
在唱出《喝采》前是這樣說的:「我好不滿陳百強,
因為他作的歌實在太好, 我對他十分失望,
因為他從沒作過歌給我 … 如果我地係女人,
他便是余麗珍,
我是李香琴,
就讓我這個李香琴唱這首歌給余麗珍聽。」

當Leslie唱至音樂過場觀眾忽然起哄, 原來 Danny 來了, 一見到他,
Leslie立即上前擁抱, 拖著他的手好一回兒,
Danny笑容滿臉地向 Leslie 恭賀,
看上去有點害羞和有點不知所措,
Danny給人的感覺就像溫室脆弱的小花,
心地善良但極需要別人呵護,
和Leslie最大的分別就是明顯缺乏他那飛揚的神采和自信。

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我在網上找到另一篇有關的文章........

心結 - 翁靜晶
2005/05/20 經濟日報


翁靜晶八五年,張國榮首次舉行個人演唱會,
其中有一晚,陳百強是捧場嘉賓,
更獲前者之邀上台合唱《鼓舞》,亦即《喝釆》之主題曲。

這一回,經已正式走紅的張國榮,才是舞台上的「第一男主角」,
開始從高峰「回落」的陳,再搶不走他的風頭。 

在芸芸的歌曲中,張偏偏每晚都選唱《鼓舞》,
箇中的底蘊,正是一個未解的心結。

相對於陳百強和鍾保羅,張國榮是個心直口快的人,
對於如此的鋪排,他亦坦白將心底話公開。
這番話,在他心中委實也憋得太久,
好像是歷久殘留於體內的「毒素」,找到了爆發的機會,就盡情地排洩出來。 

曾經在《喝釆》所遭受的待遇,張國榮始終未能釋懷,
每一晚唱這歌,他總以半開玩笑的口吻,
將陳百強比喻作粵語片中專門扮演東宮娘娘的余麗珍,
而將他自比為戲中飾演西宮的李香琴。
眾所周知,演忠角的余麗珍是主,演奸角的李香琴是副,
無論奸角如何地努力,也只不過是襯托著忠角的綠葉,
永遠不能超越主角的地位,永遠吃力不討好。

數來數去,「東西宮」的對壘,也只乃是《喝釆》與《失業生》的兩回,
雖是只此兩役,當中張所付出的與他收入的,完全不成正比,
因此也成了心中一根拔不掉的刺。 

直說心中話,本勇氣可嘉,
無奈當年的傳媒,竟將之批評為心胸狹窄,大做文章,
指張存心詛咒陳快學似余麗珍般,退休歸隱,
而他自己則如李香琴般,可以歷久常春。

其實,有關的「東西宮論」,純粹為了營造輕鬆幽默氣氛,
爽直的張,看不出有任何欠妥。
這方面,卻早有「高人」提示,言論易招口舌,要予以刪除。
張卻認為,台詞論只屬自嘲,並無絲毫貶人之意,堅持要保留。
沒想到,結果真的因此遭到輿論壓力。

Friday, March 31, 2006

Fighting for my brother's teeth


尋晚俾我發現印印原來幫阿敏刷牙好求其,所以我即時向她示範之前牙醫教過我地幫阿敏的有效刷牙方法,印印唔憤氣,因為呢幾年都係佢負責幫阿敏刷牙,而且覺得自己識晒,唔使我教。仲駁咀咁話,因為阿敏驚我,所以我幫他刷牙時會較合作;但阿敏知道佢係工人,所以蝦佢,分分鐘會咬佢添!話如果阿敏唔同佢合作,叫我以後幫阿敏刷牙,尋晚佢黑口黑面咁俾我睇。

經過我同軍師商議之後,我尋晚叫佢今朝哎我起身,我幫阿敏刷部分,她站在旁邊睇,結果到佢刷果陣就亂0黎,求其撩幾撩就叫攪掂,我弊指住阿敏牙縫果粒飯話俾佢知,佢就鬼食泥咁邊刷邊說:阿娣最污糟,阿娣唔乾淨,阿敏唔使返學.....一路刷就一路講俾我聽,跟住我沉住氣,叫佢送完阿敏返學之後,唔好買餸住,返0黎屋企先,咁佢就收聲問我做乜,我費事0係阿敏面前同佢嘈,所以重覆一次頭先講0既0野!

她返家後,我淨係話我幫她刷牙,嚇到她鬼殺咁嘈,死都唔肯;跟住我就叫她幫我刷,然後step by step咁執,直至她完全明白整個步驟為止,過程之中如果她做對了,我就讚佢做得0岩!上課完畢時她的表現都幾開心,
BUT 晏晝開始又唔出聲,我就扮忙扮睇佢唔到。

到夜晚實戰,仍然係我先幫阿敏刷牙,她站在旁邊睇,跟住到她。今次她終於跟住正確0既方法幫阿敏刷,不過太過大力,我估是弄痛阿敏,他又唔識表達,梗係縮啦!我就解釋俾佢聽,阿敏的牙周病嚴重,當牙刷太大力在爛肉上面磨擦會令阿敏痛,所以我地初初要細力d......

經過兩日三次的實戰,印印的表情話俾我知,她明白她做錯什麼了!

我在想原來每個人都以為他的ego很強,不容任何人challenge,甚至推卸責任,總之係人地錯晒自己無錯;但另一方面,我們每一個人亦很脆弱,恐懼自己無能力應付而逃避責任,怕別人知道自己的軟弱而故作堅強,衍生種種惡行,到底是我們在保護自我,抑或任由自我摧毀我們真我呢?

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

相愛易 相處難

今天重溫李天命談愛情的演講,讚歎欣賞! 輯錄其中一段分享:

「相愛易,相處難」,似乎只是陳腔濫調,其實是至理名言。意大利詩人裴多菲有一首詩就這樣說 : 「樹上櫻桃千萬顆,我卻只有一個老婆,但就是一個已經嫌太多,她早晚終於會氣死我。」很難想像他曾寫過 : 「生命承可貴,愛情價更高。」

可能是後面那一句是追求階段時寫的詩,前面那一句是相處時寫的詩。

兩個人相處總是因為嫉妒,令到相處很難。

戀人相處,小心眼的人不願擺明說自己不開心,認為要自己說出來會很傷自尊心、不是味兒、沒意思,但又不能表現得完全若無其事,因為這麼一來對方就不會察覺「原來你不開心」。這時候就要找出一條微妙的界線 : 要隱隱約約、在若有若無之間表露出來,讓對方嗅到一些蛛絲馬跡 ... ...
在這個遊戲中必須緊記的是 : 適可而止。

如果愛情是動物性,單純是性,便很難解釋有些愛情會犠牲 。如果兩個人經常迫在一起,人性便會日久生厭、容易衝突。然而我們不能因為對方具有動物性或生理上的性質,便界定對方不珍惜關係,或界定這不是真正的愛情。只要克服這些相處的難關,便要恭喜各位!

Survived



"As far as the east is from the west, so far has God removed our transgressions from us."-Psalm 103:12

When God forgives, God forgets! Someone once said that when you bury the hatchet, don't leave the handle above the ground. You can always find the hatchet again that way, and dig it up again. God never digs up our past when He forgives! Isn't that beautiful! I am set free by God's loving forgiveness.

I ought to be glad, I will live in the peace of my forgiveness. I've some friends who loved me deeply.

Sparkless ending


Somehow I kept thinking about Wah in this trip. We planned to go to Hokkaido before I quitted Apple Daily. We would not seen each other in the future, eventhough we did have loved deeply.

Sometimes I thought about Margarita who had been driven me crazy in the past. He kept me in his second place. He played the leading role is Mr. Big.

Whoever was be loved or loved me, it's not an easy way.

Forgive me! I don't know how to love actually. Especially for "him" I wonder better evade each other.

Time is proof. I couldn't feel strength, he unclasped my hand from his hand.

I try to conceal who is the guy, cause hard to tell it will be sparkless at the end.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Storms of life



Lord, I take my eyes off my problems and difficulties and turn them to you. As I do I can feel Your peace within me, a calmness in the midst of the storms of life!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Contradiction

Someone may not treat you good.
We have no need to be afriad the reality.
Because people always count on their strength, and our weakness at the same time.

Someone may treat you good.
We should remind ourselves the help in our time of need.
But the world may say we both are fool.

Any contradiction more?

Adorable Love


Love is the world may have changed, your love always stand by your side. But the reality is people always count on your weakness and leave.

A Love That Will Never Grow Old
Emmylou Harris
by Gustavo Santaolalla

Go to sleep, may your sweet dreams come true
Just lay back in my arms for one more night
I've this crazy old notion that calls me sometimes
Saying this one's the love of our lives.

Refrain: Cause I know a love that will never grow old
And I know a love that will never grow old.

When you wake up the world may have changed
But trust in me, I'll never falter or fail
Just the smile in your eyes, it can light up the night,
And your laughter's like wind in my sails.

(Refrain) Lean on me, let our hearts beat in time,
Feel strength from the hands that have held you so long.
Who cares where we go on this rutted old road
In a world that may say that we're wrong.

一份永不褪色的愛

入睡吧,願你能美夢成真
再一夜的躺臥在我的手臂上
這樣瘋狂的舊時想法已不時呼喚著我
說出這個人對你生命的摯愛

因為我知道一份永不褪色的愛
我了解一份永不褪色的愛

當你醒來時,世界也許早已改變
然而請相信我,我絕不動搖卻步
就如你眼中的微笑,它可以照亮黑夜
而你的笑容就像我助我揚帆行駛的微風

因為我知道一份永不褪色的愛
我了解一份永不褪色的愛

依靠我,讓我們的心及時地搏動
感受長久緊握住你的手的力量
誰在乎我們繼續的顛簸路程
在一個也許會說我們不道德的世界中

Monday, March 20, 2006

Perfect Peace

Peace Be Yours III

By Dr. Robert Schuller

"God will keep you in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Him, because you trust in the Lord forever."-Isaiah 26:3


I discovered the secret to peace of mind years ago as I was returning from a special mission in Korea. On the way home, I stopped in Hawaii and there I saw a beautiful sculptured statue of Jesus Christ returning to the sheepfold carrying the lamb that had been lost.

Jesus' weary expression confirmed my belief that He had spent long hours walking up and down the steep slopes, through crevices and canyons, until He finally found the lost sheep.

What struck me particularly about the statue was the peaceful appearance of the lamb as it seemed to curl itself around the neck of the Good Shepherd. The two front feet were folded gently, the one relaxed across the other. You could almost sense the feeling that perhaps the baby lamb was still trembling a little and his tiny body was still damp and cold. But as he relaxed on the shoulder of Jesus, he was warming up and a sense of calmness and security swept over him.

He was safe on the shoulder of the good Shepherd. He was lost, but now he'd been found. What peace flooded his being. He had been saved!

The secret of real peace of mind is to be found in Jesus; born anew through His Spirit, and trusting your future to Him! Jesus Christ is my source of true PEACE.

As I turn my attention to Jesus my
Savior, I can feel tension and anxiety
slipping away and a strong awareness
of peace flood my being!

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Missing Leslie





Hanged arround TST couple days ago. It brought back many pleasant memories. But......
No more smile.
No more tears.

Somehow missing Leslie Cheung. Remember his favourite song.

I Honestly Love You
Olivia Newton-John
[Written by Peter Allen and Jeff Barry]

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say

I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine

God has a positive answer

I recieved a email from my honey.

She wrote,
"Baby, I want to share this article with you. I hope it can help you to solve your problem and hope can well after you read it."

That's what I need to have the answer.

神有正面答案
God has a positive answer


在一場船難中,唯一的生存者隨著潮水,
漂流到了一座無人島上。
The only survivor of a shipwreck
was washed up on a small, uninhabited island.


他天天激動地祈禱神救他能夠早日離開此處,回到家鄉。
他還每天注視著海上有否可搭救他的人,
但卻是除了汪洋一片,什麼也沒有。
He prayed feverishly for God to rescue him,
and every day he scanned the horizon for help,
but none seemed forthcoming.


後來,他決定用那片帶他到小島的木頭造一個簡陋的小木屋
以保護他在這險惡的環境中生存,並且保存他所有剩下的東西。
Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a little hut
out of driftwood to protect him from the elements,
and to store his few possessions.


但有一天,在他捕完食物後,準備回小屋時,
突然發現他的小屋竟然陷在熊熊烈火之中,
大火引起的濃煙不斷向天上竄。
But then one day, after scavenging for food,
he arrived home to find his little hut in flames,
the smoke rolling up to the sky.


最悲慘的是:他所有的一切東西,在這一瞬間,
通通化為烏有了。悲痛的他,氣憤的對天吶喊著:
「神啊!你怎么可以這樣對待我!」
頓時,眼淚從他的眼角中流出。
The worst had happened; everything was lost.
He was stunned with grief and anger.
"God, how could you do this to me!" he cried.


第二天一早,他被一艘正靠近小島的船隻的鳴笛聲所吵醒。
是的,有人來救他了。
Early the next day, however, he was awakened
by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island.
It had come to rescue him.


到了船上時,他問那些船員說:「你怎麼知道我在這裡?」
"How did you know I was here?"
asked the weary man of his rescuers.


「因為我們看到了信號般的濃煙。」他們回答說。
"We saw your smoke signal," they replied.


人在碰到困難時,很容易會沮喪。
不過,無論受到折磨或者痛苦,都不用因此失去信心,
因為上帝一直在我們心裡面做著奇妙的工作。
It is easy to get discouraged when things are going bad.
But we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in our lives,
even in the midst of pain and suffering.


記著:當下一次你的小木屋著火時,
那可能只是上帝美妙恩典的表徵而已。
Remember, next time your little hut is burning to the ground
it just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of God.


在所有我們所認為負面的事情,上帝都是有正面答案的。
For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves,
God has a positive answer.

你說:「那是不可能的。」
上帝說:「在人所不能的事,在神卻能。」(路 18:27)
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

你說:「我累了。」
上帝說:「我讓你休息。」(太11:28-30)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

你說:「沒有人愛我。」
上帝說:「我愛你。」(約 3:16 & 約 3:34)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)

你說:「我做不下去了。」
上帝說:「我的恩典夠你支持下去。」

(林後 12:9 & 詩 91:15)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

你說:「我想不通。」
上帝說:「我引領你前行。」(箴 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

你說:「我做不到。」
上帝說:「你什麼都做得到。」(腓 4:13)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

你說:「我不配。」
上帝說:「你配。」(林後 9:8)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

你說:「這麼做不值得。」
上帝說:「做了,你馬上就會覺得值得了。」 (羅 8:28)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)

你說:「我無法原諒自己。」
上帝說:「我原諒你。」 (約壹 1:9 & 羅 8:1)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

你說:「我是窮苦的。」
上帝說:「我供應你一切所需。」 (腓 4:19)
You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

你說:「我害怕。」
上帝說:「我並沒有給你一個恐懼的靈。」 (提後 1:7)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

你說:「我常常在擔憂、受挫。」
上帝說:「放下你的重擔,我為你承擔。」 (彼後 5:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

你說:「我信心不足。」
上帝說:「我給了每個人相同的信心。」(羅 12:3)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)

你說:「我不夠聰明。」
上帝說:「我給你智慧。」 (林後 1:30)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)

你說:「我是孤單的。」
上帝說:「我永遠不會捨棄你的。」 (來 13:5)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Insider vs Outsider

I wish God delight my words and my thoughts. Not to be a paranoia.

My focus should be on the other people, not on myself.

No fear, no escape, no deaf, no mute, no blind......for growing up.

When I could be have such couraged?

Depressed

Depressed such a horrible feeling. The failure was a blow to my ego.

I'm afriad of doing something wrong or something worst again.

Don't want to trouble anyone, but still to be a troublesome being.

It seems to be a contradiction between my words and actions.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Secret Name

His name is Chris, just I know. His idol is Louis Koo. And he wanted to get Louis's naked photo in forum.

WOW! Is he really gay??

Kick out

Never understand some friends have excuse to treate me bad. Eventhough they try to be changed their problems. Communications skills is difficult from them.

They make many rules or principles, they believe their standard is alright. Their strength is making hard-feelings to friends, and let you down. Any kinds of bad things always come from their mouths. The most important point is they know you'll get away if they keep doing bad.

Too Hash for keep such "friends"!! Forgive me! It's time to giving up them.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Have Courage!

"Out of His glorious, unlimited resources He will give you
the mighty inner strengthening of His Holy Spirit."-Ephesians 3:16(LB)


For over fifteen years, Lois had battled cancer. Yet all of those years she served as my personal secretary. I never in my life expect to meet anyone more courageous than she was.

Often she had days when she was so ill that getting out of bed took all the strength she had! Lois would deliberately fall out of bed, walk on her hands and knees to the bathroom, reach for the sink and pull herself up. Finally standing on her feet, she would pull a brush through her hair, wash, and then force herself to get dressed.
Then she would stumble into the kitchen, drink some water, eat a dry piece of toast, search for her purse and walk to the door. Perspiration pouring off her forehead, she would stand up straight, look at her husband and say, "Well, Ralph, I think I can make it now."

And she would walk out the door, get into her car and drive to the church. She was always there before me, and when I came in with my usual greeting: "Good morning, how are you?" She would smile and say, "Great!" Her commitment to the ministry gave her the courage to stay alive many more years than her prognosis. Only God can give you that kind of COURAGE

Come, Lord, and transform my
melancholy spirit until my heart erupts
with joy and courageous happiness!
“求他按著他豐盛的榮耀,藉著他的靈,叫你們心裡的力量剛強起來。”─以弗所書3章16節


露斯一直是我的私人秘書,與癌病對抗超過十五年,沒見過有人比她更有勇氣。

單是從床上起來,她已用盡所有力氣!露斯小心翼翼地離開床,用雙手和膝爬向浴室,最後雙腳站直在臉盆前,用刷子梳洗,再更衣。然後她會跌跌撞撞地走到廚房,飲些水和吃一塊乾烤麵包,找尋她的錢包和走向門口。這時她額頭已充滿汗水。

接著她就出門,走進車子,駛向教會。她永遠比我先到。

當我走進來與她打招呼:“早晨,你好嗎?”她會微笑著說:“好極了!”露斯對工作的承諾,令她比預期多活許多許多年。只有神能賜你那樣的勇氣。

上主,請把我那憂傷的心靈轉變,
讓我心中迸發出喜樂和勇氣。

Unlovely people

"Share each other's troubles and problems, and so obey our Lord's command."-Galatians 6:2 (LB)


Sometimes God sends into our lives people who are unlovely and very difficult to care for. All too often these people give us plenty of reasons for not caring, when in reality they need to be cared for.

What unlovely, uncaring person has God sent into your life recently? Describe why it is hard for you to be caring to this person:

1. Mother who's always in bad temper with me. Everybody know she doesn't trust me at all.
2. Yin who blam me everytime with lot of excuses. He treate me very very bad.
3. Paul who's always guide me to do something bad and dangerous. Used to rude attitude with me.

I don't know my love will growing or not, care them with courage or not, but Lord will give me the wisdom to face to them not excape.

I think I must learn to express my feelings something bad about me. It will help me to grow up.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Off

I'm not sure why I interest in blog. It seems like Daddy Long Legs. I'm getting lost. Career, love, family, friendship, religion......

I'll go to Hokkaido at 22/3/06, 5 days trip with honey. Hope I can find my way after this.

I wonder why I don't have any heart beat with him, but miss him sometimes. I don't enjoy such feelings.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Hate

Somehow time go by, people hate someone who do whatever is best for them. Eventhough they're lovers, family, friends, relatives......

They hate your face, your sound, your attitude, your act.......

People will change their mind. World will change. Time goes by.

Beware the one who'd changed. Their destructive power is heavy.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Searching actor

The funny game started, since I told to Lin about someone. She keeps searching the actor. But I still keep my mouth closed.

Lin may want to give a hand. Well, later!